i need to know if i have something worth living for.
the world is about to become a hard, terrible place.
it will be difficult to live every day. impossible without something to survive for.

there are a lot of things that i could live for, but only one thing worth surviving for, and it's you. try not to be mad when you find out it's you.

once upon a time, there was a person who believed that they were no longer allowed to think bad things or feel bad feelings or say any bad words.

"fuck it", she said

remember

bring Tim one (1) cupcake on exam day.

thing i noticed among other things about DPS

Keatings' death is foreshadowed by his taking on the title of the deceased Captain from Whitman's elegy for Abraham Lincoln, the subtext of other poetry being read, the cycle of seasons, and themes of the old passing away to accomodate the rise of the new. This makes it all the more jarring when we realize, perhaps a few scenes before the gun is discovered, that Neil, not Keatings, is the character eventually claimed by death.

I bought a purse from the thrift store.
I mean,
I needed a bag to carry my stuff in, but
I also needed a... token of femininity. And
I needed something to "test the waters", to see how much
I could get away with.

After three days,
Nobody's said an unkind word or laughed at
me.

dgdsgdg

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/T%C5%8Dy%C5%8D_kanji#Mazegaki

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harlem_Children%27s_Zone

emily
(3:50 PM) I read something interesting about education the other day
(3:50 PM) it was about a comprehensive program in Harlem that provided for mothers and their children from birth until they entered the education system
(3:50 PM) instead of focusing on what happened in the education system itself
wendy
(3:50 PM) where did you read that? i could really use that
emily
(3:51 PM) uh someone linked the study on PA
(3:51 PM) lemme find it
(3:52 PM) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Harlem_Children%27s_Zone
(3:52 PM) that's the program
(3:52 PM) I don't know where the study of its success would be though
(3:53 PM) but it was a study that said the series of workshops for parents + the pre-k program was the most significant predictor of future educational success than any other educational initiative in the country
wendy
(3:53 PM) this will give me a starting point
emily
(3:53 PM) and that conclusively we should be focusing on those early years
(3:53 PM) and not just grades 1-12
wendy
(3:54 PM) that's already a really important part of my argument but i need to develop it as much as possible
(3:54 PM) because proving that out-of-school factors are more important than in-school factors as a predictor of educational success
emily
(3:54 PM)
(3:54 PM) yeah that's the key
wendy
(3:55 PM) is a key step towards breaking the myth that "education is the great equalizer" and that you dont need to help poor people
(3:55 PM) just give them shitty schools and blame them when they fail

(3:56 PM) I was reading a study too about how the prognosis for schizophrenia was significantly better in the developing world than the developed
(3:56 PM) despite the lack of access to medication
(3:57 PM) on the basis that people with that level of impairment in the developing world are not forced into a role of independence they can't fit